After three years, I’m back…

Lots of things had happened on those three years, first some bad ones that took me through hell but, I endured it and cane out wiser. After a while, life finally turned around and the good things began to happen. Very good things indeed!!!

I was keeping a Moleskine journal and loved it but, since at the end, it’s made of paper, it’s prone to get damaged easily, I decided to pick up on what I started here. Life it’s busy, messy and more often than not, a bit crazy, so… Let’s see how it goes!

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Love, such a weird thing…

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Hard to understand, hard to measure, hard to find… where is it hidden?, what is it?…  It is not the same for everybody, but everyone wants it, longs for it, chases it… but, do they find it? or they thought they did?

Love is a confusing thing, contradictory little thing, it can nurture you if you are lucky but it will certainly destroy you if you are not. Those who you love the most become dangerous people for you, because they may hurt you the most… and believe me, they will… even if it’s not fully intentionally…

How do you protect from the back draws of love?… no idea, I’m still trying to learn… You could, of course,  close your heart so you

won’t feel a thing, you won’t get hurt, but then you won’t know the good side of love either, love has wonderful things as I myself experienced… Love makes you want to become a better person than you already are, it just comes naturally for you, to try to

be the best version of yourself; and you will succeed… it is  a double gain, for you and your beloved… there’s nothing better than deeply love someone and, at the same time,  not only know it, but actually feel that you are being loved back in the same way…

The saddest part comes when your love goes to the wrong person, who couldn’t care less about you or whatever good things you have to offer… but still lingers around you, with no apparent intentions of improving anything…  Then you have two choices, either you realize that you are wasting you time and scape from it searching for new horizons… or… you panic and don’t do anything about it because you are already too hurt, too disappointed, too sad, too paranoid…to even think about taking the risk of getting another shot of venom from someone else… Then, you are in serious, big trouble…

Believe me, I know…